美国国家公共电台 NPR What One Family Lost In Pulse Nightclub A Year Ago

（单词翻译）

(SOUNDBITE OF MUSIC)

DAVID GREENE, HOST:

So it has been a year now since a gunman killed 49 people at the Pulse¹ nightclub in Orlando. And today on StoryCorps, we're going to remember Deonka Drayton, one of the people murdered that night. She was 32 at the time. And she had a son with her partner Emily Addison. Addison came to StoryCorps to talk about what it has been like to lose her.

EMILY ADDISON: She had a beautiful voice, the most amazing smile and she smelled so good all the time. We moved down here in Florida in 2012 together. But the heat - she couldn't stand the heat. But it did not matter how hot it was outside, she would go outside and play ball with our son. And she used² to always tell me that as long as she was alive, our son and I would never want for anything.

And she kept her word. She texted me that night. She said that she was scared, people were shot³. But when our son is asleep, we turn our ringers off. And I feel like I wasn't there for her when she needed me the most. I tried to text her. Her phone was going straight to voicemail. And I prayed⁴ so hard my knuckles⁵ were white.

But she was one of the ones that was murdered in the bathroom. The closer it gets to the one year anniversary⁶, all it's doing is reminding⁷ me of the last time I saw her. I can tell you what was in her stomach because I made the last meal. She loved my cooking. She loved my cooking. My son, he's 3 now. And every night when we're going to bed, we walk up the stairs, he'll turn to her picture and say, night, night, Mommy.

I don't know how to get him to understand that she's never coming back. And I miss her so much. That feeling is constant⁸. Like, I need her to call me. I need to see her. I will always love her no matter what. There will never be an end.

GREENE: Emily Addison remembering her partner Deonka Drayton, who was killed at the Pulse nightclub in Orlando, Fla. Her interview will be archived at the Library of Congress