《简·爱》 Chapter 35 第三十五章（15）

（单词翻译）

All men of talent, whether they be men of feeling or not;

一切有才能的人，无论有无感情，

whether they be zealots, or aspirants¹, or despots --

无论是狂热者、还是追求者，抑或暴君——

provided only they be sincere -- have their sublime² moments, when they subdue³ and rule.

只要是诚恳的——在征服和统治期间都有令人崇敬的时刻。

I felt veneration⁴ for St. John -- veneration so strong that its impetus⁵ thrust me at once to the point I had so long shunned⁶.

我崇敬圣·约翰——那么五体投地，结果所产生的冲击力一下子把我推到了我久久回避的那一点上。

I was tempted⁷ to cease struggling with him -- to rush down the torrent⁸ of his will into the gulf⁹ of his existence, and there lose my own.

我很想停止同他搏斗——很想让他意志的洪流急速注入他生活的海峡，与我的水乳交融。

I was almost as hard beset¹⁰ by him now as I had been once before, in a different way, by another.

现在我被他所困扰，几乎就象当初我受到另一个人的不同方式的困扰一样，

I was a fool both times.

两次我都做了傻瓜，

To have yielded then would have been an error of principle;

在当时让步会是原则上的错误；

to have yielded now would have been an error of judgment¹¹.

而现在让步就会犯判断的错误。

So I think at this hour, when I look back to the crisis through the quiet medium of time:

所以此时此刻我想，当我透过时间的平静中介，回头去看那危机时，

I was unconscious of folly¹² at the instant.

当初我并没有意识到自己的愚蠢。

I stood motionless under my hierophant's touch.

我一动不动地站着，受着我的圣师的触摸。

My refusals were forgotten -- my fears overcome -- my wrestlings paralysed.

我忘却了拒绝——克服了恐惧——停止了搏斗。

The Impossible -- i.e. my marriage with St. John -- was fast becoming the Possible.

不可能的事——也就是我与圣·约翰的婚姻——很快要成为可能了。

All was changing utterly¹³ with a sudden sweep.

猛地一阵风过，全都变了样。

Religion called -- Angels beckoned¹⁴ -- God commanded --

宗教在呼唤——天使在招手——上帝在指挥——

life rolled together like a scroll¹⁵ -- death's gates opening, showed eternity¹⁶ beyond:

生命被卷起，好像书卷——死亡之门打开了，露出了彼岸的永恒。

it seemed, that for safety and bliss¹⁷ there, all here might be sacrificed in a second.

后来，为了那里的安全和幸福，顷刻之间这里什么都可以牺牲。

The dim room was full of visions.

阴暗的房间里充满了幻象。

"Could you decide now?" asked the missionary¹⁸.

“你现在就能决定吗？”传教士问。