密歇根新闻广播 如何处理强迫症?它到底是朋友还是恶魔?

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Some call it the Doubting Disease.

OCD—Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder¹—is when you've got recurring², uncontrollable thoughts and behaviors.

You get those unwanted thoughts or urges. Those make you anxious. So you start performing some action or ritual to assuage³ that anxiety. Maybe excessive hand-washing or cleaning. Maybe arranging and ordering things in a very particular and precise way.

Kirsten Pagacz of Howell started experiencing OCD symptoms when she was just nine years old.

After decades of wrestling with then, she finally managed to get free of what she calls the "OCD prison."

Pagacz has written a memoir⁴ meant to help those who struggle with the disorder, called Leaving the OCD Circus. She joined Stateside to talk about her experience with OCD, and the process of writing about it.

Pagacz said she initially⁵ welcomed her symptoms, because they instilled⁶ a sense of order in what was otherwise an unstable⁷ childhood.

"I started to hear a kind of an inner monologue⁸ or an authoritative⁹ voice that would give me certain instructions," she explained. Tapping out to a certain number, or otherwise following the instructions of the inner authoritarian¹⁰, gave her a sense of control.

Such control was short-lived, however. Soon after she "let OCD in the door, it became much less of a friend and more of a monster," she said. "More and more, he would come into my daily life, my daily thoughts, and the challenges that would be set out before me became much more rigorous."

It was only through the process of writing Leaving the OCD Circus that Pagacz finally hit on the right name for that monster: Sergeant¹¹.