NPR 12-14:Finding Redemption Through Acceptance 包容他人是我们得以救赎自
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Working as an interrogator1 at Guantanamo Bay, Cuba, is a dangerous job. Yet an experience with a terrorism suspect led one veteran of the Iraq war to believe in the power of redemption and acceptance.
Welcome to this I believe in NPR series presenting the personal philosophies of remarkable2 men and women from all walks of life.
From NPR news, this is weekend edition. I am Lian Henson.
I believe in mystery.
I believe in family.
I believe in being who I am.
I believe in the power of failure.
I believe normal life is extraordinary. This I believe.
Our essay today came to us from an unusual source. She is a former interrogator at Guantanomo Bay Naval3 Base in Cuba. We can't broadcast her real name or current location because of the death threat against US interrogators. So we'll call her Alex Anderson. Here's our series curator, independent producer J. Alison.
Alex Anderson heard our series on the radio while working at the prison at Guantanomo during a time of crisis for her. She said that this project gave her a way to organize her thoughts about her core convictions in a way that helped her make sense of her actions. As you'll hear in her essay for this I believe.
I believe in the power of redemption.
I was an interrogator at the detention4 facility in Guantanamo Bay, Cuba. I don't have any torture stories to share. I think many people would be surprised at the civilized5 lifestyle I experienced in Guantanamo. The detainees I worked with were murderers and rapists. You never forgot for a moment that, given the chance, they'd kill you to get out. Some committed crimes so horrific that I lost sleep wondering what would happen if they were set free.
But this is not the only reason I could not sleep; I had spent 18 months in Iraq just before my arrival in Cuba. First I served as a soldier for a year, and then returned as a civilian6 contractor7 because I felt I hadn't done enough to make a difference the first time. After the Abu Ghraib scandal broke, I left because I felt I could not make any difference anymore. Those events simply undermined all of our work.
I felt defeated and frightened and tired, and I hoped I could redeem8 myself by making a difference in Guantanamo. Still, I couldn't sleep. I was plagued with dreams of explosions and screaming. After being sleepless9 for more than 48 hours, I began to hallucinate. I thought people were planting bombs outside my house in Guantanamo. That was the night my roommate brought me to the hospital.
When I returned to work, I began to meet again with my clients, which is what I chose to call my detainees. We were all exhausted10. Many of them came back from a war having lost friends, too. I wondered how many of them still heard screaming at night like I did.
My job was to obtain information that would help keep U.S. soldiers safe. We'd meet, play dominoes, I'd bring chocolate and we'd talk a lot. There was one detainee, Mustafa, who joked that I was his favorite interrogator in the world, and I joked back that he was my favorite terrorist — and he was. He'd committed murders and did things we all wished he could take back. He asked me one day, suddenly serious, "You know everything about me, but still you do not hate me. Why?"
His question stopped me cold. I said "Everyone has done things in their past that they're not proud of. I know I have, but I also know God still expects me to love Him with all my heart, soul, mind and strength, and to love my neighbor as myself. That means you."
Mustafa started to cry. "That's what my God says, too," he said.
Accepting Mustafa helped me accept myself again. My clients may never know this, but my year with them helped me to finally heal. My nightmares stopped.
I don't know what kind of a difference I made to the mission in Guantanamo. But I found redemption in caring for my clients, and I believe it saved my life — or at least my sanity11. People say, "Hate the sin, not the sinner." That is easier said than done, but I learned that there is true freedom in accepting others unconditionally12.
I believe we help to redeem each other through the power of acceptance. It is powerful to those who receive it and more powerful to those who give it.
With her essay for this I believe. Alex Anderson, a pseud name to protect her identity because of death threats on US interrogators. Anderson has left Guantanomo but is still working in intelligence.
If you have a statement of personal belief you'd like to send us, visit our website for details, that's npr.org/thisibelieve. Or you can also find a link to our weekly podcast. For this I believe, I am J. Alison.
J. Alison is coeditor with Dan Gadamin, John Gregory and Vicky Merick of the book This I Believe: The Personal Philosophies of Remarkable Men and Women. Support for this I believe comes from Prudential Retirement13.
This I believe is produced for NPR by This I Believe incorporated at Atlantic Public Media. For more essays in the series, please visit npr.org/thisibelieve.
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