2007年NPR美国国家公共电台五月-Being Content with Myself

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Welcome to This I Believe, an NPR series presenting the personal philosophies of remarkable¹ men and women from all walks of life.

For our series This I Believe, we receive thousands of essays from young people. Today we hear from one of them. Kamaal Majeed is a junior at Waltham high school in Massachusetts and wrote his essay in his English class last year. Here is our series curator independent producer Jay Allison.

Kamaal Majeed loves studying language. Intends to use his knowledge to help people understand one another better and as with most of his personal decisions, he is not likely to be knocked off course by the judgements or expectations of others. As you'll hear in his essay for This I Believe.

Why don't your act black? Since my middle school years, I've been asked this question more than any other. It seems to me that too many people have what society program into their brains, what should be expected of me, a black person, before ever interacting with me. But I believe in being who I am, not who others want me to be.

On my first day of high school, going into math class, two of my classmates pointed² and laughed at me. I initially³ thought my fly was open, or that something was stuck in my teeth. But as I took my seat, I heard one of the students whisper, why is a black person taking honors? So my fly wasn't open. An honors-level class had simply been joined by a student whose skin was an unsettling shade of brown.

Many people think that my clothes should be big enough for me to live in, or expect me to listen exclusively to black music. In seventh grade, a group of my peers fixed⁴ their cold stares on my outfit⁵. Cargo⁶ shorts and a plain, fitting T-shirt. They called out to me, go get some gangsta clothes, white boy.

In one of my Spanish classes, as part of a review exercise, the teacher asked me, Te gusta mas, la musica de rap o rock? Do you like rap music or rock music more? I replied, La musica de rock. The looks of shock on my classmates' faces made me feel profoundly alienated⁷.

I am now in my junior year of high school. I still take all honors courses. My wardrobe still consists solely⁸ of clothes that are appropriate to my proportions. My music library spans from rock to pop to techno, and almost everything in between. When it comes to choosing my friends, I am still colorblind. I continue to do my best work in school in order to reach my goals. And yet, when I look in the mirror, I still see skin of that same shade of brown.

My skin color has done nothing to change my personality, and my personality has done nothing to change my skin color.

I believe in being myself. I believe that I — not any stereotype⁹ — should define who I am and what actions I take in life. In high school, popularity often depends on your willingness to follow trends. And I've been told that it doesn't get much easier going into adulthood¹⁰. But the only other option is to sacrifice my individuality for the satisfaction and approval of others. Sure, this can be appealing, since choosing to keep my self-respect intact has made me unpopular and disliked at times, with no end to that in sight. But others' being content with me is not nearly as important as my being content with myself.

Kamaal Majeed with his essay for This I Believe. Kamaal's high school English class voted for which essay should be submitted to our series. They voted unanimously for his. If you would like to send us your essay, votes or novotes, you may do so at npr.org. For This I Believe, I'm Jay Allison.

This I Believe is produced for NPR by This I Believe Incorporated and Atlantic Public Media. For more essays in the series, please visit npr.org/thisibelieve.
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unsettle
To make uneasy; disturb.
Honors course
To introduce a student to new material or new ways of thinking about material, as well as making the student more skilled in analysis and communication. In short, the Honors program seeks, through its courses, to make a student more educated through an interactive¹¹ classroom environment
proportion
Dimensions; size. Often used in the plural¹².
techno
Any of various styles of dance music characterized by electronic sounds and a high-energy, rhythmic¹³ beat.